Thursday, November 19, 2009

Who shot that arrow in your throat?

Who missed the crimson apple?
Here I am on another cold and desolate early morning. I should go to sleep, but every time I close my eyes, it's the same dream. The same face I see. The same face I've seen night after night, year after year. Like a haunting melody that you can't get out of your head.
Maybe, I think to myself, I'm not cut out for this life. Maybe this isn't where I'm supposed to be. But if it's not, then why am I here?

And if it's not one thing, it's another. If it's not the dreams, it's my family. How my dad damn destroyed our lives with his drinking problems. I don't give a fuck how long he's been sober (2 years and some odd months), I will never forgive him for what he put us all through. I will never forgive him for making my mom cry and I will always hate him with some little peice of me for it. I will never forgive him for the way he always made sure his friends and shit knew I was his step daughter when most of my friends didn't know he wasn't biologically my dad. I will never forgive him for all the times he hurt me on purpose with the harsh things he said. I will never see him as the same man I adored as a child.
My mom is a strong woman, but she is emotionally distant. Growing up, I never had a damn person to turn to. It's been better as I've gotten older, my relationship with my mom...but it's still strained in many ways. We don't talk all that often about serious things. I have to turn to my friends. But I love my mom and she has always been there for me when I needed her the most. I just wish she appreciated me more, recognized my strengths instead of my weaknesses. Hell, she doesn't even see the stuff I write. I tried to show her a couple times, but she didn't really care. Gods know that hurt.
As for my little brother, Davey? Not much to say. He's a brat and a tool, but it's my job to protect him and I do just that. I'm the one that protected him when he was little and mom and dad would have huge ass fights. I'm the one that taught him how to drown it all out.

My friends, my other family:
There is Alisa, the one person I know will always be there for me. Six years is a long time to deal with each other. Sure we fight, but we're like sisters so it all works out in the end. Hell, I'm at her house right now. We watched a bumch of movies the last 2 days and we plan on watching more later...after we both get some sleep.
Then there's Codie. Codie the boy I met a month and a half ago. The boy that might have actually broken down all those carefully constructed walls I put up. The boy I think about and smile. The one that comes with complications. The one that has a girlfriend. Codie, the boy that has become one of my closest friends in as short a time span as Alisa in the beginning.
Then I have Lynny, the illusive one. She is, for all accounts and purposes, like a cousin. You see her every know and again, you talk to her once and a while. She's a little self absorbed and bitchy, but she's ours. No matter how many days go by without hearing a word from her.
There is Ellie, the good girl. The girl who worries about us all, the one that tries to smile at everyone. She is shy with a heart of gold. She may not see it herself, but she is beautiful in a way that most people are not. She is one of the kindest and most generous people I have ever met. She is a bright light in our darkness.
And there is Brittany. The one we love but push in the mud. She is stronger than most people and because of that, we don't see some of the things that get to her. We hurt her and she still loves us. She hurts us and we still love her. No matter how many times I try to walk away, all the hateful words I say, I love her. She is my other sister. No matter what I say when I'm pissed. I am sorry for all the times I have used her for a punching bag. And if she hates me, I will understand completely.
And Emily, my brat. I call her my daughter, because she is the daughter of my soul. I will always feel responsible for her, no matter what happens or how mature and capable she is. I just want what's best for her, and I know that it bothers her sometimes. It bothers me too.
And finally, Michaela. She is some one I can confide, can trust. Some one that is open and raw with her emotions. A girl that doesn't seem to trust easy. She is like a port in a storm, a breath of fresh air. She is the one I turn to when I can't my head straight, she knows what to ask and what to say to make all that fog lift.
These are my inner most circle, my people, my family. I will kill to protect them, die to defend them. I will avenge them, hold them when they cry and smile when they are happy. I will be there until the end for them, even if they cannot see me. These are the people that mean the world to me, whether they know it or not.
And as rambling as this may come across, I'm glad that I have said it, all of it. I feel a little lighter, a littler brighter, a little happier and a littler sadder for it all. It is life and it is mine and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Not even the dreams of my past.


Friday, November 6, 2009

Living on the mind of fireflies

So, it has been a really long time since I posted a damn thing on here and I felt the time was right...
My life as of this moment:
1. Codie. That is one hell of a complicated situation. How did I end up in a love triangle this time? Working at haunted houses of course. But Codie is seriously great. Fucking amazing guy and we're supposed to hang out tomorrow if point 2 doesn't bite me in the ass.
2. I think my parents are going to get a divorce. Mom found out that dad cheated on her a month ago. I haven't seen my mom this pissed in years. She is going for full force destruction mode.
3. I've been sick off and on for over a month and am getting really pissed about it. On the plus side...well, there really is no plus side on that.
4. I called and said Happy Birthday. I was shaking when I did, terrified. Gods know I've been a bitch. But I meant what I said, whether I'm believed or not. It wasn't a joke.
Hmm, nothing else really to say other than you assholes better get ready to throw that fucking party.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Jimmy says it's better than air

Give me novaciane...
Holy hell, it has been a long ass time since I updated on here. Well, Ellie moved to Virginia for college and Alisa is now living in Detroit. Me? I'm still trying to get a job so I can get a car so I can get to college. Not to mention, pay for college.
I talked to Joey and Kanna for a while today. I'm at my grandma' sitting, oh the joy.
I cut all ties with Brittany, so I never have to deal with that skeezy bitch again. I graduated, much to the displeasure of my underclassmen army. They're a bunch of good kids and they're gonna be fine...they just don't realize that yet. I've got a good feeling about that bunch.
I plan on getting two new tattoos in the very near future. The names/words Hugin and Munin on my wrists with black feathers. Eventually, I'm going to get a wolf and dream catcher design on my inner shoulder.
It's like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind...
I'm hitting point where I just don't care any more. I'm in one of my moods and try as I may, I can't seem to get out of it. I'm stuck. But I guess it's ok, not like I go any where or hang out with people.
I'm gonna go try to sleep or take a shower or something.

Later Loves,

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

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WOW! Look, I'm still alive! I graduated saturday! No more high school! I've been with Alisa since Friday and I go home on Thursday.
Hmm, other news..I found a really long list that I'm about to add on to here...the list of 1001 books to read before you die. I've read some of them...


  1. Never Let Me Go – Kazuo Ishiguro
  2. Saturday – Ian McEwan
  3. On Beauty – Zadie Smith
  4. Slow Man – J.M. Coetzee
  5. Adjunct: An Undigest – Peter Manson
  6. The Sea – John Banville
  7. The Red Queen – Margaret Drabble
  8. The Plot Against America – Philip Roth
  9. The Master – Colm Tóibín
  10. Vanishing Point – David Markson
  11. The Lambs of London – Peter Ackroyd
  12. Dining on Stones – Iain Sinclair
  13. Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
  14. Drop City – T. Coraghessan Boyle
  15. The Colour – Rose Tremain
  16. Thursbitch – Alan Garner
  17. The Light of Day – Graham Swift
  18. What I Loved – Siri Hustvedt
  19. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time – Mark Haddon (This one I started to read like two or three years ago and just never finished it)
  20. Islands – Dan Sleigh
  21. Elizabeth Costello – J.M. Coetzee
  22. London Orbital – Iain Sinclair
  23. Family Matters – Rohinton Mistry
  24. Fingersmith – Sarah Waters
  25. The Double – José Saramago
  26. Everything is Illuminated – Jonathan Safran Foer
  27. Unless – Carol Shields
  28. Kafka on the Shore – Haruki Murakami
  29. The Story of Lucy Gault – William Trevor
  30. That They May Face the Rising Sun – John McGahern
  31. In the Forest – Edna O’Brien
  32. Shroud – John Banville
  33. Middlesex – Jeffrey Eugenides
  34. Youth – J.M. Coetzee
  35. Dead Air – Iain Banks
  36. Nowhere Man – Aleksandar Hemon
  37. The Book of Illusions – Paul Auster
  38. Gabriel’s Gift – Hanif Kureishi
  39. Austerlitz – W.G. Sebald
  40. Platform – Michael Houellebecq
  41. Schooling – Heather McGowan
  42. Atonement – Ian McEwan
  43. The Corrections – Jonathan Franzen
  44. Don’t Move – Margaret Mazzantini
  45. The Body Artist – Don DeLillo
  46. Fury – Salman Rushdie
  47. At Swim, Two Boys – Jamie O’Neill
  48. Choke – Chuck Palahniuk (Alisa has it so I might just have to borrow it)
  49. Life of Pi – Yann Martel
  50. The Feast of the Goat – Mario Vargos Llosa
  51. An Obedient Father – Akhil Sharma
  52. The Devil and Miss Prym – Paulo Coelho
  53. Spring Flowers, Spring Frost – Ismail Kadare
  54. White Teeth – Zadie Smith
  55. The Heart of Redness – Zakes Mda
  56. Under the Skin – Michel Faber
  57. Ignorance – Milan Kundera
  58. Nineteen Seventy Seven – David Peace
  59. Celestial Harmonies – Péter Esterházy
  60. City of God – E.L. Doctorow
  61. How the Dead Live – Will Self
  62. The Human Stain – Philip Roth
  63. The Blind Assassin – Margaret Atwood
  64. After the Quake – Haruki Murakami
  65. Small Remedies – Shashi Deshpande
  66. Super-Cannes – J.G. Ballard
  67. House of Leaves – Mark Z. Danielewski
  68. Blonde – Joyce Carol Oates
  69. Pastoralia – George Saunders
  70. Timbuktu – Paul Auster
  71. The Romantics – Pankaj Mishra
  72. Cryptonomicon – Neal Stephenson
  73. As If I Am Not There – Slavenka Drakuli?
  74. Everything You Need – A.L. Kennedy
  75. Fear and Trembling – Amélie Nothomb
  76. The Ground Beneath Her Feet – Salman Rushdie
  77. Disgrace – J.M. Coetzee
  78. Sputnik Sweetheart – Haruki Murakami
  79. Elementary Particles – Michel Houellebecq
  80. Intimacy – Hanif Kureishi
  81. Amsterdam – Ian McEwan
  82. Cloudsplitter – Russell Banks
  83. All Souls Day – Cees Nooteboom
  84. The Talk of the Town – Ardal O’Hanlon
  85. Tipping the Velvet – Sarah Waters
  86. The Poisonwood Bible – Barbara Kingsolver
  87. Glamorama – Bret Easton Ellis
  88. Another World – Pat Barker
  89. The Hours – Michael Cunningham
  90. Veronika Decides to Die – Paulo Coelho
  91. Mason & Dixon – Thomas Pynchon
  92. The God of Small Things – Arundhati Roy
  93. Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden
  94. Great Apes – Will Self
  95. Enduring Love – Ian McEwan
  96. Underworld – Don DeLillo
  97. Jack Maggs – Peter Carey
  98. The Life of Insects – Victor Pelevin
  99. American Pastoral – Philip Roth
  100. The Untouchable – John Banville
  101. Silk – Alessandro Baricco
  102. Cocaine Nights – J.G. Ballard
  103. Hallucinating Foucault – Patricia Duncker
  104. Fugitive Pieces – Anne Michaels
  105. The Ghost Road – Pat Barker
  106. Forever a Stranger – Hella Haasse
  107. Infinite Jest – David Foster Wallace
  108. The Clay Machine-Gun – Victor Pelevin
  109. Alias Grace – Margaret Atwood
  110. The Unconsoled – Kazuo Ishiguro
  111. Morvern Callar – Alan Warner
  112. The Information – Martin Amis
  113. The Moor’s Last Sigh – Salman Rushdie
  114. Sabbath’s Theater – Philip Roth
  115. The Rings of Saturn – W.G. Sebald
  116. The Reader – Bernhard Schlink
  117. A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
  118. Love’s Work – Gillian Rose
  119. The End of the Story – Lydia Davis
  120. Mr. Vertigo – Paul Auster
  121. The Folding Star – Alan Hollinghurst
  122. Whatever – Michel Houellebecq
  123. Land – Park Kyong-ni
  124. The Master of Petersburg – J.M. Coetzee
  125. The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle – Haruki Murakami
  126. Pereira Declares: A Testimony – Antonio Tabucchi
  127. City Sister Silver – Jàchym Topol
  128. How Late It Was, How Late – James Kelman
  129. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis de Bernieres
  130. Felicia’s Journey – William Trevor
  131. Disappearance – David Dabydeen
  132. The Invention of Curried Sausage – Uwe Timm
  133. The Shipping News – E. Annie Proulx
  134. Trainspotting – Irvine Welsh
  135. Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
  136. Looking for the Possible Dance – A.L. Kennedy
  137. Operation Shylock – Philip Roth
  138. Complicity – Iain Banks
  139. On Love – Alain de Botton
  140. What a Carve Up! – Jonathan Coe
  141. A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
  142. The Stone Diaries – Carol Shields
  143. The Virgin Suicides – Jeffrey Eugenides
  144. The House of Doctor Dee – Peter Ackroyd
  145. The Robber Bride – Margaret Atwood
  146. The Emigrants – W.G. Sebald
  147. The Secret History – Donna Tartt
  148. Life is a Caravanserai – Emine Özdamar
  149. The Discovery of Heaven – Harry Mulisch
  150. A Heart So White – Javier Marias
  151. Possessing the Secret of Joy – Alice Walker
  152. Indigo – Marina Warner
  153. The Crow Road – Iain Banks
  154. Written on the Body – Jeanette Winterson
  155. Jazz – Toni Morrison
  156. The English Patient – Michael Ondaatje
  157. Smilla’s Sense of Snow – Peter Høeg
  158. The Butcher Boy – Patrick McCabe
  159. Black Water – Joyce Carol Oates
  160. The Heather Blazing – Colm Tóibín
  161. Asphodel – H.D. (Hilda Doolittle)
  162. Black Dogs – Ian McEwan
  163. Hideous Kinky – Esther Freud
  164. Arcadia – Jim Crace
  165. Wild Swans – Jung Chang
  166. American Psycho – Bret Easton Ellis
  167. Time’s Arrow – Martin Amis
  168. Mao II – Don DeLillo
  169. Typical – Padgett Powell
  170. Regeneration – Pat Barker
  171. Downriver – Iain Sinclair
  172. Señor Vivo and the Coca Lord – Louis de Bernieres
  173. Wise Children – Angela Carter
  174. Get Shorty – Elmore Leonard
  175. Amongst Women – John McGahern
  176. Vineland – Thomas Pynchon
  177. Vertigo – W.G. Sebald
  178. Stone Junction – Jim Dodge
  179. The Music of Chance – Paul Auster
  180. The Things They Carried – Tim O’Brien
  181. A Home at the End of the World – Michael Cunningham
  182. Like Life – Lorrie Moore
  183. Possession – A.S. Byatt
  184. The Buddha of Suburbia – Hanif Kureishi
  185. The Midnight Examiner – William Kotzwinkle
  186. A Disaffection – James Kelman
  187. Sexing the Cherry – Jeanette Winterson
  188. Moon Palace – Paul Auster
  189. Billy Bathgate – E.L. Doctorow
  190. Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
  191. The Melancholy of Resistance – László Krasznahorkai
  192. The Temple of My Familiar – Alice Walker
  193. The Trick is to Keep Breathing – Janice Galloway
  194. The History of the Siege of Lisbon – José Saramago
  195. Like Water for Chocolate – Laura Esquivel
  196. A Prayer for Owen Meany – John Irving (I started to read it but Ellie needed it back for school)
  197. London Fields – Martin Amis
  198. The Book of Evidence – John Banville
  199. Cat’s Eye – Margaret Atwood
  200. Foucault’s Pendulum – Umberto Eco
  201. The Beautiful Room is Empty – Edmund White
  202. Wittgenstein’s Mistress – David Markson
  203. The Satanic Verses – Salman Rushdie
  204. The Swimming-Pool Library – Alan Hollinghurst
  205. Oscar and Lucinda – Peter Carey
  206. Libra – Don DeLillo
  207. The Player of Games – Iain M. Banks
  208. Nervous Conditions – Tsitsi Dangarembga
  209. The Long Dark Teatime of the Soul – Douglas Adams
  210. Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency – Douglas Adams
  211. The Radiant Way – Margaret Drabble
  212. The Afternoon of a Writer – Peter Handke
  213. The Black Dahlia – James Ellroy
  214. The Passion – Jeanette Winterson
  215. The Pigeon – Patrick Süskind
  216. The Child in Time – Ian McEwan
  217. Cigarettes – Harry Mathews
  218. The Bonfire of the Vanities – Tom Wolfe
  219. The New York Trilogy – Paul Auster
  220. World’s End – T. Coraghessan Boyle
  221. Enigma of Arrival – V.S. Naipaul
  222. The Taebek Mountains – Jo Jung-rae
  223. Beloved – Toni Morrison(This is one of the best books I have ever read. I love it)
  224. Anagrams – Lorrie Moore
  225. Matigari – Ngugi Wa Thiong’o
  226. Marya – Joyce Carol Oates
  227. Watchmen – Alan Moore & David Gibbons
  228. The Old Devils – Kingsley Amis
  229. Lost Language of Cranes – David Leavitt
  230. An Artist of the Floating World – Kazuo Ishiguro
  231. Extinction – Thomas Bernhard
  232. Foe – J.M. Coetzee
  233. The Drowned and the Saved – Primo Levi
  234. Reasons to Live – Amy Hempel
  235. The Parable of the Blind – Gert Hofmann
  236. Love in the Time of Cholera – Gabriel García Márquez
  237. Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit – Jeanette Winterson
  238. The Cider House Rules – John Irving
  239. A Maggot – John Fowles
  240. Less Than Zero – Bret Easton Ellis
  241. Contact – Carl Sagan
  242. The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
  243. Perfume – Patrick Süskind
  244. Old Masters – Thomas Bernhard
  245. White Noise – Don DeLillo
  246. Queer – William Burroughs
  247. Hawksmoor – Peter Ackroyd
  248. Legend – David Gemmell
  249. Dictionary of the Khazars – Milorad Pavic
  250. The Bus Conductor Hines – James Kelman
  251. The Year of the Death of Ricardo Reis – José Saramago
  252. The Lover – Marguerite Duras
  253. Empire of the Sun – J.G. Ballard
  254. The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks
  255. Nights at the Circus – Angela Carter
  256. The Unbearable Lightness of Being – Milan Kundera
  257. Blood and Guts in High School – Kathy Acker
  258. Neuromancer – William Gibson
  259. Flaubert’s Parrot – Julian Barnes
  260. Money: A Suicide Note – Martin Amis
  261. Shame – Salman Rushdie
  262. Worstward Ho – Samuel Beckett
  263. Fools of Fortune – William Trevor
  264. La Brava – Elmore Leonard
  265. Waterland – Graham Swift
  266. The Life and Times of Michael K – J.M. Coetzee
  267. The Diary of Jane Somers – Doris Lessing
  268. The Piano Teacher – Elfriede Jelinek
  269. The Sorrow of Belgium – Hugo Claus
  270. If Not Now, When? – Primo Levi
  271. A Boy’s Own Story – Edmund White
  272. The Color Purple – Alice Walker
  273. Wittgenstein’s Nephew – Thomas Bernhard
  274. A Pale View of Hills – Kazuo Ishiguro
  275. Schindler’s Ark – Thomas Keneally
  276. The House of the Spirits – Isabel Allende
  277. The Newton Letter – John Banville
  278. On the Black Hill – Bruce Chatwin
  279. Concrete – Thomas Bernhard
  280. The Names – Don DeLillo
  281. Rabbit is Rich – John Updike
  282. Lanark: A Life in Four Books – Alasdair Gray
  283. The Comfort of Strangers – Ian McEwan
  284. July’s People – Nadine Gordimer
  285. Summer in Baden-Baden – Leonid Tsypkin
  286. Broken April – Ismail Kadare
  287. Waiting for the Barbarians – J.M. Coetzee
  288. Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie
  289. Rites of Passage – William Golding
  290. Rituals – Cees Nooteboom
  291. Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole
  292. City Primeval – Elmore Leonard
  293. The Name of the Rose – Umberto Eco
  294. The Book of Laughter and Forgetting – Milan Kundera
  295. Smiley’s People – John Le Carré
  296. Shikasta – Doris Lessing
  297. A Bend in the River – V.S. Naipaul
  298. Burger’s Daughter - Nadine Gordimer
  299. The Safety Net – Heinrich Böll
  300. If On a Winter’s Night a Traveler – Italo Calvino
  301. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
  302. The Cement Garden – Ian McEwan
  303. The World According to Garp – John Irving
  304. Life: A User’s Manual – Georges Perec
  305. The Sea, The Sea – Iris Murdoch
  306. The Singapore Grip – J.G. Farrell
  307. Yes – Thomas Bernhard
  308. The Virgin in the Garden – A.S. Byatt
  309. In the Heart of the Country – J.M. Coetzee
  310. The Passion of New Eve – Angela Carter
  311. Delta of Venus – Anaïs Nin
  312. The Shining – Stephen King(I love Stephen King and the book is sooo better than the movie)
  313. Dispatches – Michael Herr
  314. Petals of Blood – Ngugi Wa Thiong’o
  315. Song of Solomon – Toni Morrison
  316. The Hour of the Star – Clarice Lispector
  317. The Left-Handed Woman – Peter Handke
  318. Ratner’s Star – Don DeLillo
  319. The Public Burning – Robert Coover
  320. Interview With the Vampire – Anne Rice(LOVED IT to the core of my being)
  321. Cutter and Bone – Newton Thornburg
  322. Amateurs – Donald Barthelme
  323. Patterns of Childhood – Christa Wolf
  324. Autumn of the Patriarch – Gabriel García Márquez
  325. W, or the Memory of childhood – Georges Perec
  326. A Dance to the Music of Time – Anthony Powell
  327. Grimus – Salman Rushdie
  328. The Dead Father – Donald Barthelme
  329. Fateless – Imre Kertész
  330. Willard and His Bowling Trophies – Richard Brautigan
  331. High Rise – J.G. Ballard
  332. Humboldt’s Gift – Saul Bellow
  333. Dead Babies – Martin Amis
  334. Correction – Thomas Bernhard
  335. Ragtime – E.L. Doctorow
  336. The Fan Man – William Kotzwinkle
  337. Dusklands – J.M. Coetzee
  338. The Lost Honor of Katharina Blum – Heinrich Böll
  339. Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy – John Le Carré
  340. Breakfast of Champions – Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.
  341. Fear of Flying – Erica Jong
  342. A Question of Power – Bessie Head
  343. The Siege of Krishnapur – J.G. Farrell
  344. The Castle of Crossed Destinies – Italo Calvino
  345. Crash – J.G. Ballard
  346. The Honorary Consul – Graham Greene
  347. Gravity’s Rainbow – Thomas Pynchon
  348. The Black Prince – Iris Murdoch
  349. Sula – Toni Morrison
  350. Invisible Cities – Italo Calvino
  351. The Breast – Philip Roth
  352. The Summer Book – Tove Jansson
  353. G – John Berger
  354. Surfacing – Margaret Atwood
  355. House Mother Normal – B.S. Johnson
  356. In A Free State – V.S. Naipaul
  357. The Book of Daniel – E.L. Doctorow
  358. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas – Hunter S. Thompson
  359. Group Portrait With Lady – Heinrich Böll
  360. The Wild Boys – William Burroughs
  361. Rabbit Redux – John Updike
  362. The Sea of Fertility – Yukio Mishima
  363. The Driver’s Seat – Muriel Spark
  364. The Ogre – Michael Tournier
  365. The Bluest Eye – Toni Morrison
  366. Goalie’s Anxiety at the Penalty Kick – Peter Handke
  367. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings – Maya Angelou
  368. Mercier et Camier – Samuel Beckett
  369. Troubles – J.G. Farrell
  370. Jahrestage – Uwe Johnson
  371. The Atrocity Exhibition – J.G. Ballard
  372. Tent of Miracles – Jorge Amado
  373. Pricksongs and Descants – Robert Coover
  374. Blind Man With a Pistol – Chester Hines
  375. Slaughterhouse Five – Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.
  376. The French Lieutenant’s Woman – John Fowles
  377. The Green Man – Kingsley Amis
  378. Portnoy’s Complaint – Philip Roth
  379. The Godfather – Mario Puzo
  380. Ada – Vladimir Nabokov
  381. Them – Joyce Carol Oates
  382. A Void/Avoid – Georges Perec
  383. Eva Trout – Elizabeth Bowen
  384. Myra Breckinridge – Gore Vidal
  385. The Nice and the Good – Iris Murdoch
  386. Belle du Seigneur – Albert Cohen
  387. Cancer Ward – Aleksandr Isayevich Solzhenitsyn
  388. The First Circle – Aleksandr Isayevich Solzhenitsyn
  389. 2001: A Space Odyssey – Arthur C. Clarke
  390. Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? – Philip K. Dick
  391. Dark as the Grave Wherein My Friend is Laid – Malcolm Lowry
  392. The German Lesson – Siegfried Lenz
  393. In Watermelon Sugar – Richard Brautigan
  394. A Kestrel for a Knave – Barry Hines
  395. The Quest for Christa T. – Christa Wolf
  396. Chocky – John Wyndham
  397. The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test – Tom Wolfe
  398. The Cubs and Other Stories – Mario Vargas Llosa
  399. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel García Márquez
  400. The Master and Margarita – Mikhail Bulgakov
  401. Pilgrimage – Dorothy Richardson
  402. The Joke – Milan Kundera
  403. No Laughing Matter – Angus Wilson
  404. The Third Policeman – Flann O’Brien
  405. A Man Asleep – Georges Perec
  406. The Birds Fall Down – Rebecca West
  407. Trawl – B.S. Johnson
  408. In Cold Blood – Truman Capote
  409. The Magus – John Fowles
  410. The Vice-Consul – Marguerite Duras
  411. Wide Sargasso Sea – Jean Rhys
  412. Giles Goat-Boy – John Barth
  413. The Crying of Lot 49 – Thomas Pynchon
  414. Things – Georges Perec
  415. The River Between – Ngugi wa Thiong’o
  416. August is a Wicked Month – Edna O’Brien
  417. God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater – Kurt Vonnegut
  418. Everything That Rises Must Converge – Flannery O’Connor
  419. The Passion According to G.H. – Clarice Lispector
  420. Sometimes a Great Notion – Ken Kesey
  421. Come Back, Dr. Caligari – Donald Bartholme
  422. Albert Angelo – B.S. Johnson
  423. Arrow of God – Chinua Achebe
  424. The Ravishing of Lol V. Stein – Marguerite Duras
  425. Herzog – Saul Bellow
  426. V. – Thomas Pynchon
  427. Cat’s Cradle – Kurt Vonnegut
  428. The Graduate – Charles Webb
  429. Manon des Sources – Marcel Pagnol
  430. The Spy Who Came in from the Cold – John Le Carré
  431. The Girls of Slender Means – Muriel Spark
  432. Inside Mr. Enderby – Anthony Burgess
  433. The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath
  434. One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich – Aleksandr Isayevich Solzhenitsyn
  435. The Collector – John Fowles
  436. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest – Ken Kesey
  437. A Clockwork Orange – Anthony Burgess
  438. Pale Fire – Vladimir Nabokov
  439. The Drowned World – J.G. Ballard
  440. The Golden Notebook – Doris Lessing
  441. Labyrinths – Jorg Luis Borges
  442. Girl With Green Eyes – Edna O’Brien
  443. The Garden of the Finzi-Continis – Giorgio Bassani
  444. Stranger in a Strange Land – Robert Heinlein
  445. Franny and Zooey – J.D. Salinger
  446. A Severed Head – Iris Murdoch
  447. Faces in the Water – Janet Frame
  448. Solaris – Stanislaw Lem
  449. Cat and Mouse – Günter Grass
  450. The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie – Muriel Spark
  451. Catch-22 – Joseph Heller
  452. The Violent Bear it Away – Flannery O’Connor
  453. How It Is – Samuel Beckett
  454. Our Ancestors – Italo Calvino
  455. The Country Girls – Edna O’Brien
  456. To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
  457. Rabbit, Run – John Updike
  458. Promise at Dawn – Romain Gary
  459. Cider With Rosie – Laurie Lee
  460. Billy Liar – Keith Waterhouse
  461. Naked Lunch – William Burroughs
  462. The Tin Drum – Günter Grass
  463. Absolute Beginners – Colin MacInnes
  464. Henderson the Rain King – Saul Bellow
  465. Memento Mori – Muriel Spark
  466. Billiards at Half-Past Nine – Heinrich Böll
  467. Breakfast at Tiffany’s – Truman Capote
  468. The Leopard – Giuseppe Tomasi di Lampedusa
  469. Pluck the Bud and Destroy the Offspring – Kenzaburo Oe
  470. A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute
  471. The Bitter Glass – Eilís Dillon
  472. Things Fall Apart – Chinua Achebe
  473. Saturday Night and Sunday Morning – Alan Sillitoe
  474. Mrs. ‘Arris Goes to Paris – Paul Gallico
  475. Borstal Boy – Brendan Behan
  476. The End of the Road – John Barth
  477. The Once and Future King – T.H. White
  478. The Bell – Iris Murdoch
  479. Jealousy – Alain Robbe-Grillet
  480. Voss – Patrick White
  481. The Midwich Cuckoos – John Wyndham
  482. Blue Noon – Georges Bataille
  483. Homo Faber – Max Frisch
  484. On the Road – Jack Kerouac
  485. Pnin – Vladimir Nabokov
  486. Doctor Zhivago – Boris Pasternak
  487. The Wonderful “O” – James Thurber
  488. Justine – Lawrence Durrell
  489. Giovanni’s Room – James Baldwin
  490. The Lonely Londoners – Sam Selvon
  491. The Roots of Heaven – Romain Gary
  492. Seize the Day – Saul Bellow
  493. The Floating Opera – John Barth
  494. The Lord of the Rings – J.R.R. Tolkien(read and own whole trilogy plus the Hobbit)
  495. The Talented Mr. Ripley – Patricia Highsmith
  496. Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov
  497. A World of Love – Elizabeth Bowen
  498. The Trusting and the Maimed – James Plunkett
  499. The Quiet American – Graham Greene
  500. The Last Temptation of Christ – Nikos Kazantzákis
  501. The Recognitions – William Gaddis
  502. The Ragazzi – Pier Paulo Pasolini
  503. Bonjour Tristesse – Françoise Sagan
  504. I’m Not Stiller – Max Frisch
  505. Self Condemned – Wyndham Lewis
  506. The Story of O – Pauline Réage
  507. A Ghost at Noon – Alberto Moravia
  508. Lord of the Flies – William Golding(I love and own this book ^-^ <3)
  509. Under the Net – Iris Murdoch
  510. The Go-Between – L.P. Hartley
  511. The Long Goodbye – Raymond Chandler
  512. The Unnamable – Samuel Beckett
  513. Watt – Samuel Beckett
  514. Lucky Jim – Kingsley Amis
  515. Junkie – William Burroughs
  516. The Adventures of Augie March – Saul Bellow
  517. Go Tell It on the Mountain – James Baldwin
  518. Casino Royale – Ian Fleming
  519. The Judge and His Hangman – Friedrich Dürrenmatt
  520. Invisible Man – Ralph Ellison
  521. The Old Man and the Sea – Ernest Hemingway
  522. Wise Blood – Flannery O’Connor
  523. The Killer Inside Me – Jim Thompson
  524. Memoirs of Hadrian – Marguerite Yourcenar
  525. Malone Dies – Samuel Beckett
  526. Day of the Triffids – John Wyndham
  527. Foundation – Isaac Asimov
  528. The Opposing Shore – Julien Gracq
  529. The Catcher in the Rye – J.D. Salinger
  530. The Rebel – Albert Camus
  531. Molloy – Samuel Beckett
  532. The End of the Affair – Graham Greene
  533. The Abbot C – Georges Bataille
  534. The Labyrinth of Solitude – Octavio Paz
  535. The Third Man – Graham Greene
  536. The 13 Clocks – James Thurber
  537. Gormenghast – Mervyn Peake
  538. The Grass is Singing – Doris Lessing
  539. I, Robot – Isaac Asimov
  540. The Moon and the Bonfires – Cesare Pavese
  541. The Garden Where the Brass Band Played – Simon Vestdijk
  542. Love in a Cold Climate – Nancy Mitford
  543. The Case of Comrade Tulayev – Victor Serge
  544. The Heat of the Day – Elizabeth Bowen
  545. Kingdom of This World – Alejo Carpentier
  546. The Man With the Golden Arm – Nelson Algren
  547. Nineteen Eighty-Four – George Orwell
  548. All About H. Hatterr – G.V. Desani
  549. Disobedience – Alberto Moravia
  550. Death Sentence – Maurice Blanchot
  551. The Heart of the Matter – Graham Greene
  552. Cry, the Beloved Country – Alan Paton
  553. Doctor Faustus – Thomas Mann
  554. The Victim – Saul Bellow
  555. Exercises in Style – Raymond Queneau
  556. If This Is a Man – Primo Levi
  557. Under the Volcano – Malcolm Lowry
  558. The Path to the Nest of Spiders – Italo Calvino
  559. The Plague – Albert Camus
  560. Back – Henry Green
  561. Titus Groan – Mervyn Peake
  562. The Bridge on the Drina – Ivo Andri?
  563. Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh
  564. Animal Farm – George Orwell
  565. Cannery Row – John Steinbeck
  566. The Pursuit of Love – Nancy Mitford
  567. Loving – Henry Green
  568. Arcanum 17 – André Breton
  569. Christ Stopped at Eboli – Carlo Levi
  570. The Razor’s Edge – William Somerset Maugham
  571. Transit – Anna Seghers
  572. Ficciones – Jorge Luis Borges
  573. Dangling Man – Saul Bellow
  574. The Little Prince – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
  575. Caught – Henry Green
  576. The Glass Bead Game – Herman Hesse
  577. Embers – Sandor Marai
  578. Go Down, Moses – William Faulkner
  579. The Outsider – Albert Camus
  580. In Sicily – Elio Vittorini
  581. The Poor Mouth – Flann O’Brien
  582. The Living and the Dead – Patrick White
  583. Hangover Square – Patrick Hamilton
  584. Between the Acts – Virginia Woolf
  585. The Hamlet – William Faulkner
  586. Farewell My Lovely – Raymond Chandler
  587. For Whom the Bell Tolls – Ernest Hemingway
  588. Native Son – Richard Wright
  589. The Power and the Glory – Graham Greene
  590. The Tartar Steppe – Dino Buzzati
  591. Party Going – Henry Green
  592. The Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
  593. Finnegans Wake – James Joyce
  594. At Swim-Two-Birds – Flann O’Brien
  595. Coming Up for Air – George Orwell
  596. Goodbye to Berlin – Christopher Isherwood
  597. Tropic of Capricorn – Henry Miller
  598. Good Morning, Midnight – Jean Rhys
  599. The Big Sleep – Raymond Chandler
  600. After the Death of Don Juan – Sylvie Townsend Warner
  601. Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day – Winifred Watson
  602. Nausea – Jean-Paul Sartre
  603. Rebecca – Daphne du Maurier
  604. Cause for Alarm – Eric Ambler
  605. Brighton Rock – Graham Greene
  606. U.S.A. – John Dos Passos
  607. Murphy – Samuel Beckett
  608. Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
  609. Their Eyes Were Watching God – Zora Neale Hurston
  610. The Hobbit – J.R.R. Tolkien(Haha, I own it and just reread it a couple months ago)
  611. The Years – Virginia Woolf
  612. In Parenthesis – David Jones
  613. The Revenge for Love – Wyndham Lewis
  614. Out of Africa – Isak Dineson (Karen Blixen)
  615. To Have and Have Not – Ernest Hemingway
  616. Summer Will Show – Sylvia Townsend Warner
  617. Eyeless in Gaza – Aldous Huxley
  618. The Thinking Reed – Rebecca West
  619. Gone With the Wind – Margaret Mitchell
  620. Keep the Aspidistra Flying – George Orwell
  621. Wild Harbour – Ian MacPherson
  622. Absalom, Absalom! – William Faulkner
  623. At the Mountains of Madness – H.P. Lovecraft
  624. Nightwood – Djuna Barnes
  625. Independent People – Halldór Laxness
  626. Auto-da-Fé – Elias Canetti
  627. The Last of Mr. Norris – Christopher Isherwood
  628. They Shoot Horses, Don’t They? – Horace McCoy
  629. The House in Paris – Elizabeth Bowen
  630. England Made Me – Graham Greene
  631. Burmese Days – George Orwell
  632. The Nine Tailors – Dorothy L. Sayers
  633. Threepenny Novel – Bertolt Brecht
  634. Novel With Cocaine – M. Ageyev
  635. The Postman Always Rings Twice – James M. Cain
  636. Tropic of Cancer – Henry Miller
  637. A Handful of Dust – Evelyn Waugh
  638. Tender is the Night – F. Scott Fitzgerald
  639. Thank You, Jeeves – P.G. Wodehouse
  640. Call it Sleep – Henry Roth
  641. Miss Lonelyhearts – Nathanael West
  642. Murder Must Advertise – Dorothy L. Sayers
  643. The Autobiography of Alice B. Toklas – Gertrude Stein
  644. Testament of Youth – Vera Brittain
  645. A Day Off – Storm Jameson
  646. The Man Without Qualities – Robert Musil
  647. A Scots Quair (Sunset Song) – Lewis Grassic Gibbon
  648. Journey to the End of the Night – Louis-Ferdinand Céline
  649. Brave New World – Aldous Huxley(I love this book. it is stunning. Thanks Mr. Rice)
  650. Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons
  651. To the North – Elizabeth Bowen
  652. The Thin Man – Dashiell Hammett
  653. The Radetzky March – Joseph Roth
  654. The Waves – Virginia Woolf
  655. The Glass Key – Dashiell Hammett
  656. Cakes and Ale – W. Somerset Maugham
  657. The Apes of God – Wyndham Lewis
  658. Her Privates We – Frederic Manning
  659. Vile Bodies – Evelyn Waugh
  660. The Maltese Falcon – Dashiell Hammett
  661. Hebdomeros – Giorgio de Chirico
  662. Passing – Nella Larsen
  663. A Farewell to Arms – Ernest Hemingway
  664. Red Harvest – Dashiell Hammett
  665. Living – Henry Green
  666. The Time of Indifference – Alberto Moravia
  667. All Quiet on the Western Front – Erich Maria Remarque
  668. Berlin Alexanderplatz – Alfred Döblin
  669. The Last September – Elizabeth Bowen
  670. Harriet Hume – Rebecca West
  671. The Sound and the Fury – William Faulkner
  672. Les Enfants Terribles – Jean Cocteau
  673. Look Homeward, Angel – Thomas Wolfe
  674. Story of the Eye – Georges Bataille
  675. Orlando – Virginia Woolf
  676. Lady Chatterley’s Lover – D.H. Lawrence
  677. The Well of Loneliness – Radclyffe Hall
  678. The Childermass – Wyndham Lewis
  679. Quartet – Jean Rhys
  680. Decline and Fall – Evelyn Waugh
  681. Quicksand – Nella Larsen
  682. Parade’s End – Ford Madox Ford
  683. Nadja – André Breton
  684. Steppenwolf – Herman Hesse
  685. Remembrance of Things Past – Marcel Proust
  686. To The Lighthouse – Virginia Woolf
  687. Tarka the Otter – Henry Williamson
  688. Amerika – Franz Kafka
  689. The Sun Also Rises – Ernest Hemingway
  690. Blindness – Henry Green
  691. The Castle – Franz Kafka
  692. The Good Soldier Švejk – Jaroslav Hašek
  693. The Plumed Serpent – D.H. Lawrence
  694. One, None and a Hundred Thousand – Luigi Pirandello
  695. The Murder of Roger Ackroyd – Agatha Christie
  696. The Making of Americans – Gertrude Stein
  697. Manhattan Transfer – John Dos Passos
  698. Mrs. Dalloway – Virginia Woolf
  699. The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald
  700. The Counterfeiters – André Gide
  701. The Trial – Franz Kafka
  702. The Artamonov Business – Maxim Gorky
  703. The Professor’s House – Willa Cather
  704. Billy Budd, Foretopman – Herman Melville
  705. The Green Hat – Michael Arlen
  706. The Magic Mountain – Thomas Mann
  707. We – Yevgeny Zamyatin
  708. A Passage to India – E.M. Forster
  709. The Devil in the Flesh – Raymond Radiguet
  710. Zeno’s Conscience – Italo Svevo
  711. Cane – Jean Toomer
  712. Antic Hay – Aldous Huxley
  713. Amok – Stefan Zweig
  714. The Garden Party – Katherine Mansfield
  715. The Enormous Room – E.E. Cummings
  716. Jacob’s Room – Virginia Woolf
  717. Siddhartha – Herman Hesse(Never made it past page two..granted, senioritis is a killer)
  718. The Glimpses of the Moon – Edith Wharton
  719. Life and Death of Harriett Frean – May Sinclair
  720. The Last Days of Humanity – Karl Kraus
  721. Aaron’s Rod – D.H. Lawrence
  722. Babbitt – Sinclair Lewis
  723. Ulysses – James Joyce
  724. The Fox – D.H. Lawrence
  725. Crome Yellow – Aldous Huxley
  726. The Age of Innocence – Edith Wharton
  727. Main Street – Sinclair Lewis
  728. Women in Love – D.H. Lawrence
  729. Night and Day – Virginia Woolf
  730. Tarr – Wyndham Lewis
  731. The Return of the Soldier – Rebecca West
  732. The Shadow Line – Joseph Conrad
  733. Summer – Edith Wharton
  734. Growth of the Soil – Knut Hamsen
  735. Bunner Sisters – Edith Wharton
  736. A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man – James Joyce
  737. Under Fire – Henri Barbusse
  738. Rashomon – Akutagawa Ryunosuke
  739. The Good Soldier – Ford Madox Ford
  740. The Voyage Out – Virginia Woolf
  741. Of Human Bondage – William Somerset Maugham
  742. The Rainbow – D.H. Lawrence
  743. The Thirty-Nine Steps – John Buchan
  744. Kokoro – Natsume Soseki
  745. Locus Solus – Raymond Roussel
  746. Rosshalde – Herman Hesse
  747. Tarzan of the Apes – Edgar Rice Burroughs
  748. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists – Robert Tressell
  749. Sons and Lovers – D.H. Lawrence
  750. Death in Venice – Thomas Mann
  751. The Charwoman’s Daughter – James Stephens
  752. Ethan Frome – Edith Wharton
  753. Fantômas – Marcel Allain and Pierre Souvestre
  754. Howards End – E.M. Forster
  755. Impressions of Africa – Raymond Roussel
  756. Three Lives – Gertrude Stein
  757. Martin Eden – Jack London
  758. Strait is the Gate – André Gide
  759. Tono-Bungay – H.G. Wells
  760. The Inferno – Henri Barbusse
  761. A Room With a View – E.M. Forster
  762. The Iron Heel – Jack London
  763. The Old Wives’ Tale – Arnold Bennett
  764. The House on the Borderland – William Hope Hodgson
  765. Mother – Maxim Gorky
  766. The Secret Agent – Joseph Conrad
  767. The Jungle – Upton Sinclair
  768. Young Törless – Robert Musil
  769. The Forsyte Sage – John Galsworthy
  770. The House of Mirth – Edith Wharton
  771. Professor Unrat – Heinrich Mann
  772. Where Angels Fear to Tread – E.M. Forster
  773. Nostromo – Joseph Conrad
  774. Hadrian the Seventh – Frederick Rolfe
  775. The Golden Bowl – Henry James
  776. The Ambassadors – Henry James
  777. The Riddle of the Sands – Erskine Childers
  778. The Immoralist – André Gide
  779. The Wings of the Dove – Henry James
  780. Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
  781. The Hound of the Baskervilles – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
  782. Buddenbrooks – Thomas Mann
  783. Kim – Rudyard Kipling
  784. Sister Carrie – Theodore Dreiser
  785. Lord Jim – Joseph Conrad
  786. Some Experiences of an Irish R.M. – Somerville and Ross
  787. The Stechlin – Theodore Fontane
  788. The Awakening – Kate Chopin
  789. The Turn of the Screw – Henry James
  790. The War of the Worlds – H.G. Wells
  791. The Invisible Man – H.G. Wells
  792. What Maisie Knew – Henry James
  793. Fruits of the Earth – André Gide
  794. Dracula – Bram Stoker
  795. Quo Vadis – Henryk Sienkiewicz
  796. The Island of Dr. Moreau – H.G. Wells
  797. The Time Machine – H.G. Wells
  798. Effi Briest – Theodore Fontane
  799. Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy
  800. The Real Charlotte – Somerville and Ross
  801. The Yellow Wallpaper – Charlotte Perkins Gilman
  802. Born in Exile – George Gissing
  803. Diary of a Nobody – George & Weedon Grossmith
  804. The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
  805. News from Nowhere – William Morris
  806. New Grub Street – George Gissing
  807. Gösta Berling’s Saga – Selma Lagerlöf
  808. Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy
  809. The Picture of Dorian Gray – Oscar Wilde(This one I am currently reading because it sounded amazing and a book I Love quoted it as a chapter starting point so far <3)
  810. The Kreutzer Sonata – Leo Tolstoy
  811. La Bête Humaine – Émile Zola
  812. By the Open Sea – August Strindberg
  813. Hunger – Knut Hamsun
  814. The Master of Ballantrae – Robert Louis Stevenson
  815. Pierre and Jean – Guy de Maupassant
  816. Fortunata and Jacinta – Benito Pérez Galdés
  817. The People of Hemsö – August Strindberg
  818. The Woodlanders – Thomas Hardy
  819. She – H. Rider Haggard
  820. The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde – Robert Louis Stevenson(again, senioritis)
  821. The Mayor of Casterbridge – Thomas Hardy
  822. Kidnapped – Robert Louis Stevenson
  823. King Solomon’s Mines – H. Rider Haggard
  824. Germinal – Émile Zola
  825. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn – Mark Twain(I read about half of it freshman year)
  826. Bel-Ami – Guy de Maupassant
  827. Marius the Epicurean – Walter Pater
  828. Against the Grain – Joris-Karl Huysmans
  829. The Death of Ivan Ilyich – Leo Tolstoy
  830. A Woman’s Life – Guy de Maupassant
  831. Treasure Island – Robert Louis Stevenson
  832. The House by the Medlar Tree – Giovanni Verga
  833. The Portrait of a Lady – Henry James
  834. Bouvard and Pécuchet – Gustave Flaubert
  835. Ben-Hur – Lew Wallace
  836. Nana – Émile Zola
  837. The Brothers Karamazov – Fyodor Dostoevsky
  838. The Red Room – August Strindberg
  839. Return of the Native – Thomas Hardy
  840. Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
  841. Drunkard – Émile Zola
  842. Virgin Soil – Ivan Turgenev
  843. Daniel Deronda – George Eliot
  844. The Hand of Ethelberta – Thomas Hardy
  845. The Temptation of Saint Anthony – Gustave Flaubert
  846. Far from the Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy
  847. The Enchanted Wanderer – Nicolai Leskov
  848. Around the World in Eighty Days – Jules Verne
  849. In a Glass Darkly – Sheridan Le Fanu
  850. The Devils – Fyodor Dostoevsky
  851. Erewhon – Samuel Butler
  852. Spring Torrents – Ivan Turgenev
  853. Middlemarch – George Eliot
  854. Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There – Lewis Carroll
  855. King Lear of the Steppes – Ivan Turgenev
  856. He Knew He Was Right – Anthony Trollope
  857. War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy
  858. Sentimental Education – Gustave Flaubert
  859. Phineas Finn – Anthony Trollope
  860. Maldoror – Comte de Lautréaumont
  861. The Idiot – Fyodor Dostoevsky
  862. The Moonstone – Wilkie Collins
  863. Little Women – Louisa May Alcott
  864. Thérèse Raquin – Émile Zola
  865. The Last Chronicle of Barset – Anthony Trollope
  866. Journey to the Centre of the Earth – Jules Verne
  867. Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoevsky
  868. Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll
  869. Our Mutual Friend – Charles Dickens
  870. Uncle Silas – Sheridan Le Fanu
  871. Notes from the Underground – Fyodor Dostoevsky
  872. The Water-Babies – Charles Kingsley
  873. Les Misérables – Victor Hugo
  874. Fathers and Sons – Ivan Turgenev
  875. Silas Marner – George Eliot
  876. Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
  877. On the Eve – Ivan Turgenev
  878. Castle Richmond – Anthony Trollope
  879. The Mill on the Floss – George Eliot
  880. The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins
  881. The Marble Faun – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  882. Max Havelaar – Multatuli
  883. A Tale of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
  884. Oblomovka – Ivan Goncharov
  885. Adam Bede – George Eliot
  886. Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert
  887. North and South – Elizabeth Gaskell
  888. Hard Times – Charles Dickens
  889. Walden – Henry David Thoreau
  890. Bleak House – Charles Dickens
  891. Villette – Charlotte Brontë
  892. Cranford – Elizabeth Gaskell
  893. Uncle Tom’s Cabin; or, Life Among the Lonely – Harriet Beecher Stowe
  894. The Blithedale Romance – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  895. The House of the Seven Gables – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  896. Moby-Dick – Herman Melville
  897. The Scarlet Letter – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  898. David Copperfield – Charles Dickens
  899. Shirley – Charlotte Brontë
  900. Mary Barton – Elizabeth Gaskell
  901. The Tenant of Wildfell Hall – Anne Brontë
  902. Wuthering Heights – Emily Brontë
  903. Agnes Grey – Anne Brontë
  904. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Brontë
  905. Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray
  906. The Count of Monte-Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
  907. La Reine Margot – Alexandre Dumas
  908. The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
  909. The Purloined Letter – Edgar Allan Poe
  910. Martin Chuzzlewit – Charles Dickens
  911. The Pit and the Pendulum – Edgar Allan Poe(I love this story. Poe is like a God to me)
  912. Lost Illusions – Honoré de Balzac
  913. A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
  914. Dead Souls – Nikolay Gogol
  915. The Charterhouse of Parma – Stendhal
  916. The Fall of the House of Usher – Edgar Allan Poe(Again Poe=God to me)
  917. The Life and Adventures of Nicholas Nickleby – Charles Dickens
  918. Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens
  919. The Nose – Nikolay Gogol
  920. Le Père Goriot – Honoré de Balzac
  921. Eugénie Grandet – Honoré de Balzac
  922. The Hunchback of Notre Dame – Victor Hugo
  923. The Red and the Black – Stendhal
  924. The Betrothed – Alessandro Manzoni
  925. Last of the Mohicans – James Fenimore Cooper
  926. The Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner – James Hogg
  927. The Albigenses – Charles Robert Maturin
  928. Melmoth the Wanderer – Charles Robert Maturin
  929. The Monastery – Sir Walter Scott
  930. Ivanhoe – Sir Walter Scott
  931. Frankenstein – Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley
  932. Northanger Abbey – Jane Austen
  933. Persuasion – Jane Austen
  934. Ormond – Maria Edgeworth
  935. Rob Roy – Sir Walter Scott
  936. Emma – Jane Austen
  937. Mansfield Park – Jane Austen
  938. Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
  939. The Absentee – Maria Edgeworth
  940. Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
  941. Elective Affinities – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
  942. Castle Rackrent – Maria Edgeworth
  943. Hyperion – Friedrich Hölderlin
  944. The Nun – Denis Diderot
  945. Camilla – Fanny Burney
  946. The Monk – M.G. Lewis
  947. Wilhelm Meister’s Apprenticeship – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
  948. The Mysteries of Udolpho – Ann Radcliffe
  949. The Interesting Narrative – Olaudah Equiano
  950. The Adventures of Caleb Williams – William Godwin
  951. Justine – Marquis de Sade
  952. Vathek – William Beckford
  953. The 120 Days of Sodom – Marquis de Sade
  954. Cecilia – Fanny Burney
  955. Confessions – Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  956. Dangerous Liaisons – Pierre Choderlos de Laclos
  957. Reveries of a Solitary Walker – Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  958. Evelina – Fanny Burney
  959. The Sorrows of Young Werther – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
  960. Humphrey Clinker – Tobias George Smollett
  961. The Man of Feeling – Henry Mackenzie
  962. A Sentimental Journey – Laurence Sterne
  963. Tristram Shandy – Laurence Sterne
  964. The Vicar of Wakefield – Oliver Goldsmith
  965. The Castle of Otranto – Horace Walpole
  966. Émile; or, On Education – Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  967. Rameau’s Nephew – Denis Diderot
  968. Julie; or, the New Eloise – Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  969. Rasselas – Samuel Johnson
  970. Candide – Voltaire
  971. The Female Quixote – Charlotte Lennox
  972. Amelia – Henry Fielding
  973. Peregrine Pickle – Tobias George Smollett
  974. Fanny Hill – John Cleland
  975. Tom Jones – Henry Fielding
  976. Roderick Random – Tobias George Smollett
  977. Clarissa – Samuel Richardson
  978. Pamela – Samuel Richardson
  979. Jacques the Fatalist – Denis Diderot
  980. Memoirs of Martinus Scriblerus – J. Arbuthnot, J. Gay, T. Parnell, A. Pope, J. Swift
  981. Joseph Andrews – Henry Fielding
  982. A Modest Proposal – Jonathan Swift
  983. Gulliver’s Travels – Jonathan Swift
  984. Roxana – Daniel Defoe
  985. Moll Flanders – Daniel Defoe
  986. Love in Excess – Eliza Haywood
  987. Robinson Crusoe – Daniel Defoe
  988. A Tale of a Tub – Jonathan Swift
  989. Oroonoko – Aphra Behn
  990. The Princess of Clèves – Marie-Madelaine Pioche de Lavergne, Comtesse de La Fayette
  991. The Pilgrim’s Progress – John Bunyan
  992. Don Quixote – Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra
  993. The Unfortunate Traveller – Thomas Nashe
  994. Euphues: The Anatomy of Wit – John Lyly
  995. Gargantua and Pantagruel – Françoise Rabelais
  996. The Thousand and One Nights – Anonymous
  997. The Golden Ass – Lucius Apuleius
  998. Aithiopika – Heliodorus
  999. Chaireas and Kallirhoe – Chariton
  1000. Metamorphoses – Ovid(Read part of it in school...the book didn't have all of it)
  1001. Aesop’s Fables – Aesopus

I am going to make an honest attempt to read everything on this list before I die.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

werewolves of London!

I was pretending to be asleep so I wouldn't have to let brittany in. I fucking hate her and she doesn't even know. Alisa's John agrees with me. I wanted to shoot that girl in the face so badly.
GH today was pretty good. School was okay. We had the Epic Writing Battle today. 6 page poem, fuck yeah seaking.

Current music:werewolves of London-Warren Zevon
Current mood: I will break your fucking face
Current quote: life's a bitch then you die. You're a bitch, when will you die?

What matters so there is but fire in you in me?

I feels os freaking dead right now. I tried to go to bed at 1 this morning...didn't work. I got maybe two hours of sleep and right now, I just want to kill something. I might have been able to sleep better if not for the fact that is so damned hard to get comfy with Brittany's dumb ass around.
I still can't breath :(

Current mood:tired, sick and pissed
Current music:Standing outside the fire-Garth Brooks
Current quote:"You should see what comes up when you type "Death" into a search engine."-SpencerReid.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Why won't you die?

I fucking hate her. I play nice because she lives with Mistress, but otherwise, I hope she fucking dies. And then her and David would not shut the fuck up during the season finale of Criminal Minds. I was sooo not a happy person.
On the plus side, I have a Tom to talk to ^-^ And the finale was amazing.
School is almost done and over with. Still a little freaked over that.
Tom is going to be in a fancy art show! I am sooo proud of him, you have no idea.

Current mood: Sick but okay
Current music: Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden
Current quote: And the moon never beams without brining me dreams of the beautiful Annabel Lee; and the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes of the beautiful Annabel Lee...

Later Loves

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

We are on FIRE

I've been staying with Alisa and John since Friday and it has been great. It'd be better if Brittany would go the fuck away. I've talked to Tom every single day/night. Had to wake up really early thus morning though :(

Yesterday we went to ceder point, rode two rides, played two games and decided we were done. We were cold, bored and mostly, we were just tired.

Other news...nothing.

Current Mood: Sleepy

Current Music: Lullaby-Shawn Mullins


Monday, May 11, 2009

This is the story of your gypsy uncle...

Oh the weekend. I was at my aunt Debbie's for the entirety of it. She was having a yard sale so I went and helped her. And I listened to music the entire time. I mad a few new "friends" on vampirefreaks and updated DA for the amusement of Jrax.
Other news, I was late for school today due to over sleeping. I set my alarm clock, I just never turned it on.


P.S When the hell did Darren Hayes come out of the closet and why am I just now finding out about this?

Friday, May 8, 2009

forget your name forget your fears

So, I have like 10 days left of school. Freaks me the hell out. I know it's been awhile, we had no home room at all this week do to the schedule we're on.

We finished Macbeth and watched a really bad movie of it.

What else is new? Nothing really. Wanting to Kill Alisa's mom, but that's kind of normal for me.

Well, I'm out


Saturday, May 2, 2009


kkfv dji ohtioj grkjowt smjkgr
Wolverine movie is epically amazing.


Thursday, April 30, 2009

It never was the time for this

I am spending the weekend with Alisa face and she has offered to teach me how to play WoW. I am sooooo excited. I didn't get to go to the Evans Blue show last night, but that's okay. I watched Criminal Minds with mom instead. It was a great episode, sad though. It had Alex O'Loughlin from Moonlight in it...he was the killer.
Other news...I might go and see the new X-Men movie this weekend!!!!! So excited. Other than that, I might have to brutally threaten a sophmore kid. I don't like this girl, she's a little bitch and she made my Torrie cry. No one makes me underclassmen cry except me.
I had Mr. Shock as a substitute happy. He is soo gorgeous.

Later Loves


and we nicknamed Princess's girlfriend "Slagathor" THANK YOU BOB KELSO!!!!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

They're coming back for me...

So I figured out what I'm going to do about the weekends events...nothing. It is not worth it to destroy my little brother like that. Also, he is the clingy possesive type. I don't do clingy possessive. Tried that once and wanted to kill the guy.

So save your scissors for some one else's skin...

I've been thinking a lot lately of the past 4 or so years. And much as some people think I should, I don't regret Ryan. Honestly, I know they all hated him, but he was the best thing for me at the time, even if it didn't look like it.

gotta go

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Kiss me again, 'cause only you can stop this st-st-st-st-stuttering

I am so confused right I dating it or not? And if so, how the hell am I going to explain this to my parents and how is he going to tell his mom? And how the hell is Davey going to act about this? We've known eachother for like...11 years and last night was the first time anything had ever happened. So he's 16. So what? It's only 2 years. And how no one saw this coming, even the two of us, is a little beyond me. Alisa, you know what I'm talking about and you're the only one who will read this and have it make perfect sense.

You drop a coin into the sea and shout out "Please come back to me!" You name your child after your fear and tell him "I have brought you here."...

I am, of course, with Alisa and we're kinda watching Death at a Funeral. My mommy got me more Sunkist AKA "Nector of the GODS". We went to the point today because I needed to think and being by the lake calms me the fuck way down. School is going okay, I guess. We're getting ready to read Macbeth in world lit and I get to play the part of lady macbeth. lucky me.

And now the night comes, set the stage for this, they come in pairs, she said. We'll shoot this Holy Water like cheap whiskey, they're always there...


Thursday, April 23, 2009

You drop a coin into the sea...

and shout out "please come back to me!" You name your kids after your fears and tell them "I have brought you here."...
So yesterday was the first day in a few weeks that I didn't spen with Alisa. It was kind of...nice to have some time on my own. I worked on cleaning my room for a while, gathered some more flowers for the alter and took care of my ivy plant. Which reminds me, I'm attempting to grow an ivy plant in my room.
Next week there's a concert I may or may not be going to...Evans Blue at headliners. I haven't been to headliners since September '06.
Wow...I really watch way too much General Hospital....>> << ^^.

In other news...I missed the revelation of who Hans is...My friend Sam is dating a guy that her and Ms. Finley call Hans. They tell nothing about him except enough to keep me interested in who is he..Matt blew it yesterday and I wasn't listening. I felt so jipped.



Monday, April 20, 2009

an update of the movie log

What we have watched since the last time this was updated...
My Sweet Suicide
Meet Bill
Vampire Diary
I Want Candy
Margo at the Wedding
Succubus, Hell Bent
French Twist
P.S Your Cat is Dead
R.S.V.P did not work
and some movie that was never put on because the screen was all NO!

We also watched Two Towers and Return of the King over the weekend which made me uber happiness. We also watched Wrist Cutters for the thousandth time.
Alisa and I went to a bridal shower for her cousin or whatever and I have never more in my life wanted to start heroin...My family just makes me want to drop acid. Her family...heroin. I so kicked a 6 year olds ass at guitar hero. I was actually proud of myself for that because we were on the same level and he owns the game...I hadn't played in like 6 months or more. Also, I so did Kenny's make up over the weekend.
Nothing else to say, So I am off to the main movie board!!


Thursday, April 16, 2009

w00 obscurtity

We got through a few more movies...
Prey for Rock and Roll...not nearly as cool as I thought it would be
Funny of the best fucking movies I have ever seen. Trust me, it is hilarious.
The Tattooist...just a good as I thought/hoped it would be
Scotland, was pretty good, not on my top list, but still good none the less.

In other news...nothing! How about that? Last night's Criminal Minds was a repeat. Fringe on Tuesday was pretty much epic, I expect nothing less. I missed Scrubs and most of Better of Ted. I watched last week's Lost because I taped it. I'm going to watch last night's tonight. I have to get back into the loop.

Tomorrow is the Day of Silence. Want to know more about it? go to

see ya loves,

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


We rented 18 movies yesterday. We had to go back to school TODAY. We so did not think this through. This is why we can't do things without supervision even though I'm 18 and she's 17 going on 18. Damn are we dumb.
The two we watched last night:
Rise: Blood Hunter
Kettle of Fish

both were okay, not in my top 20 though.
a few of the top 20
1.Donnie Darko
2.King of California
5.The Lost Boys
6.Ferris Buehler's Day Off
I'll add the rest of this list at a later time.


Saturday, April 11, 2009

And maybe you should SLEEP

I wanted to say that I've been doing a lot of thinking today...but that would have been a lie and, well, I don't know. Now, don't get me wrong, I like lying, I am good at it, but I prefer not to if I can help it.
Harper's Island started thursday night and it was pretty good. The new episode of Dollhouse was great, but now I have to wait 2 weeks for the next one. 11th hour had its season finale. Cupid started, it's pretty good. Other than that...Criminal Minds and Fringe...and we all know I adore both shows.
Prom is fastly approaching, We got Pat his suit yesterday. It looks spiffy.
Not much else to say.
Watching Flubber.


Monday, April 6, 2009

holy fuck nuts!!!!!!

They unblocked this at school?!!!!!!!! Woooooowwwwww....this was blocked for so long I didn't think they would ever unblock...and now that I have said that, it will be blocked again in about a week.


Sunday, April 5, 2009

And she died a tragic death...on WoW.

SO I know it has been a freaking long ass time since I did a damn thing on here...spent the weekend with Alisa-face. Listening to Neverending White Lights because they make me happy and watching Madagascar. I love those penguins. I am totally on Twitter now too. She took the gas and matches away from me. I am so sick of Repo! right now you have no idea. Ashlee fucking faked her amnesia. Lance died. Lance was like a super hero to me when I was a kid. And Richard is afraid of midgets. Tabby Cat will be having Lacey soon and life is spiraling quickly out of control. Brad and Amee, I hope you fucking rot for the bullshit you pulled and I hope like hell you realize that we don't want you in our family anymore.
I have to go home, kiddies


Saturday, March 21, 2009

I'd Give the World to You

So, the last month of my life has sucked fucking balls. Feb 25, my uncle Don loses his two year battle with cancer. Feb 28, I turned 18. March 1, my uncle's funeral. About a week after that, my friend Britt had a seizure in school. And last weekend? Fox fell and hit her head twice and now has amnesia. Isn't life great?
The new show Dollhouse is every bit as great as I thought it would be. Criminal Minds is rocking out and I am soooo going to lollapalooza this year because Depeche Mode is playing it.
More to come when I'm not in a zone of being awake for about 20 hours straight.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

We're Dead After All

So I am still alive, as shocking as that may be. The school computers blocked this page so I haven't had a chance to do a damn thing. I am not really working on Nightcore anymore because I just can't get it to flow right.
In other news, nothing.