Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween to everyone out there! :D
Angel actually text me today, shocker right there. I dressed up and passed out candy to adorable little kids. Sadly, did not get too many trick or treaters and am now left with a ton of candy.
My little niece Zoey was dressed as Princess Aurora, Tabatha dressed Lacey and Zayden as pirates which is what my cousin Carissa dressed her daughter as.


Well, I'm out for now kiddos <3

Saturday, October 29, 2011


I'm pretty depressed right now, not going to lie. Even though my friend Karin came over today, I still feel really lonely not being able to talk to Angel. Made less than decent peanut butter cookies. Note to self, cheap peanut butter is disgusting.
/le sigh.

Don't really know what else to say right now.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Coming Clean

The last 24 hours has been rough. Not because of anything that has happened to me, but because of what has been happening to the people around me.
We'll start with my "Wife" Tarrah. First, a little back story. I met Tarrah in the seventh grade, 8 years ago. She was my first real friend when I moved. She's the one that introduced me to Alisa. We spent the whole school year as best friends. Then, at the end of the school year, Tarrah and her family moved to Arizona. She later had a baby daughter, Kadance. Things with Kady's dad didn't work out and she and Kady moved back to Ohio to live with Tarrah's grandparents. Then, she started to date Aaron. I despised him almost instantly. He was quick to anger, didn't like her hanging out with people unless he was there and quite honestly, something about him didn't sit well with me. I begged her to break things off before things got serious. The more I begged, the more she pushed away and the more he isolated her from her friends. We drifted apart. Didn't speak for two years. I looked her up online one day. Sent her a message. We made plans to hang out. At this point, she and Aaron (now married and expecting a baby) were living apart. He was living at his parents while Tarrah was still at her grandparents. This was right before Kadance turned 3. Baby Anastyn was born about a month later. We went through a six month period where we barely spoke. Aaron had got on her facebook and deleted me from her friends. I decided to back off because I didn't want to be the cause of more fights between the two of them. I messaged Tarrah's grandma one day, needing to know how Tarrah and the girls were doing. Her grandmother was one of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure to meet. Tarrah sent me a friend request a couple days later. She and Aaron had gotten an apartment. Tarrah later tried to leave him, moving back in with her grandparents. About a month after that, Tarrah's grandmother tragically passed away after an aneurysm had burst in her brain. Tarrah was a wreck, vulnerable, completely heartbroken. Her grandma was hero, her grandma had basically raised her. Aaron wouldn't leave her alone, no matter how much she told him to. She eventually moved back in with him. A few days ago, Tarrah told me that she told Aaron she wanted a divorce. She moved back to her grandpa's, taking both of the girls with her, having the sole intention of joint custody of Anastyn and letting Kady decide if she wanted to Aaron to be in her life. Tarrah went to house she and Aaron had gotten about a month ago to get some stuff. She had made a bit of mess going through one of the boxes and he attacked her. Threw her into a wall, bit her multiple times and threw her down a flight of stairs. He then made her walk back to her grandpa's barefoot. She called the cops, reported the whole thing. He's out of jail on bond and she has a no contact order with the intent of getting a 2 year restraining order and full custody of Ana. Because he did this, he is losing all custodial rights to his only child. Which, to me, isn't nearly enough.

Then, my mom called me this morning. My cousin Casey? His wife, Summer, is in the hospital. Last I heard, the doctors had no real idea of what was wrong with her. They originally thought appendicitis, not ruling it out yet, but they are doing more tests and have her on a liquid diet. We have no idea how long she's going to be in the hospital.

And through all of this, I have been scared, worried, heartbroken for my friends and family. And even though he is so terribly busy with the Navy and everything that comes with military life, Angel still found the time to be there for me today. I truly am lucky to have so many great people in my life. It's funny how horrible things can bring people together. Take, for example, Tabitha and me. We have a long history of being really close friends one day and hating each other the next. But, no matter what issues she and I have with each other, we have a lot of the same friends and when something happens to one of them, we set aside everything to be there for that friend and make sure that person knows that no matter what, they are more important than petty drama.

Life. It's hard and it's fast. It throws curves and, quite honestly, bricks the size of the moon. You fall down, you get hurt. But, with good friends and family, nothing can defeat you.


Friday, October 21, 2011

Convince me I've been sick forever

I guess I'm just bumming a little bit. It gets hard being in a long distance relationship without the military aspects. I got to talk to Angel for a little bit today, but it was all through text. He's thinking the whole thing sucks right now too. I guess I'm just feeling lonely. I miss being able to hear his voice and with getting all his paperwork done for his security clearance and trying to take care of his student loans, he's just so busy and worn out.
This sucks.
Is it December yet?


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

If This is What I Call Home

Ok, a real update on my life.
I went camping with my family last week, down to southern Ohio. It was okay. Wet and windy, but alright. Thankfully, we were in the camper and not tents. Got some pretty nice pictures in the woods by where we were. On the way home, we stopped by the Olentangy Indian Caverns. Which was pretty sweet, not gonna lie. I love caverns.
On to the topic of my love life. Angel's phone was off for most of last week. Jeremy's dumb ass never told him there was a bill due and it ended up costing Angel almost 400 dollars to get the phones turned back on. Which, due to the cost, means Angel has no idea when he's going to be able to come up and see me. I was not very happy. Then, add on all the paper work he has to get done and the fact that he's been trying to get the apartment cleaned up because Jeremy trashed the place while Angel was in training. Needless to say, Angel's not been being social at all. I had to fight tooth and nail just to hear from him. This all really makes me hate Jeremy. A lot. Hopefully, Angel will be able to come up soon and hopefully I'll still be moving down there in December. A whole lot of hopefully. Yay for military life /sarcasm.
Other news. My seester and Demon are supposed to be coming down for Thanksgiving. I am so stoked to see them again. I have really missed the two of them like freaking crazy. Hung out with Brii Brii last night and we laughed so hard we couldn't breathe. It was a wonderful night. I have such amazing friends.

I guess that's really all for now.


Let Me Go Home

Well, I'm home from a family camping trip to southern Ohio. Angel graduated from A-School on Friday. And, I have decided, I hate Angel's friend Jeremy. Looooong story. I might get into all of that later. As for right now, I'm just letting everyone know that I am still alive.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

You've been the only thing that's right in a life time

One year ago today, I got off a plane in Austin, Texas. One year ago today, I saw you for the very first time. It's been one year since our first kiss, the first time we held hands, first time we fell asleep wrapped up around each other. One year since my life changed completely. It was one year ago today that I knew I would spend the rest of my life loving you. I remember being so worried that you would be different some how. Like you wouldn't be the same man I had been talking to for so much time. But you were that man. And I love you more and more each day. <3

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Coming Back Down

I get to see Angel in 2 weeks!!! I am so excited to see him again, you have no idea. Work was ok last night, we were really slow. Granted, in the last like hour we did over a 100 bucks. It sucked. Nothing like last minute people to set you back half an hour. On the 8th season of Scrubs, bored. Still missing Angel like freaking crazy.
Well, I need to get some sleep. Night world.