Showing posts from November, 2009

Who shot that arrow in your throat?

Who missed the crimson apple?
Here I am on another cold and desolate early morning. I should go to sleep, but every time I close my eyes, it's the same dream. The same face I see. The same face I've seen night after night, year after year. Like a haunting melody that you can't get out of your head.
Maybe, I think to myself, I'm not cut out for this life. Maybe this isn't where I'm supposed to be. But if it's not, then why am I here?

And if it's not one thing, it's another. If it's not the dreams, it's my family. How my dad damn destroyed our lives with his drinking problems. I don't give a fuck how long he's been sober (2 years and some odd months), I will never forgive him for what he put us all through. I will never forgive him for making my mom cry and I will always hate him with some little peice of me for it. I will never forgive him for the way he always made sure his friends and shit knew I was his step daughter when most of my f…

Living on the mind of fireflies

So, it has been a really long time since I posted a damn thing on here and I felt the time was right...
My life as of this moment:
1. Codie. That is one hell of a complicated situation. How did I end up in a love triangle this time? Working at haunted houses of course. But Codie is seriously great. Fucking amazing guy and we're supposed to hang out tomorrow if point 2 doesn't bite me in the ass.
2. I think my parents are going to get a divorce. Mom found out that dad cheated on her a month ago. I haven't seen my mom this pissed in years. She is going for full force destruction mode.
3. I've been sick off and on for over a month and am getting really pissed about it. On the plus side...well, there really is no plus side on that.
4. I called and said Happy Birthday. I was shaking when I did, terrified. Gods know I've been a bitch. But I meant what I said, whether I'm believed or not. It wasn't a joke.
Hmm, nothing else really to say other than you assholes better g…