Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Lines We Cross

I finally got to really talk to Angel yesterday. I was happy to hear from him but he had some stuff to say that is hard to handle and I'm not quite sure how to cope. He decided to switch his contract to active duty. I'm not moving to Texas in December because we don't have the money right now. He has no idea when we're going to be able to see each other but he wants to be able to see me before he has to deploy. And that's the big part of what's going on. Deployment. The one word I was afraid of hearing. I'm scared and I don't really know how to handle it. He'll be gone for 6 months to a year. I have never been more afraid of anything in my life. He doesn't know when or where to yet, he promised me he'd let me know when he does.
He did do something today that made me really happy. He told me last name that I probably wouldn't hear from him today since he was going to be super busy. Even with that, he still text me. And found the time to call his buddy Adam who really, reallyneeded him.

Well, I guess I'll fill everyone in on the basics once I know.