I'll send all my lovin to you

Well, I am back home in Ohio after spending a few days at Angel's sister's house. Went to Angel's graduation, got to spend the day with him on Friday. It was great, truly. But, it was too short and now I'm a total mess again. Crying, exhausted. I miss him more than ever now. This is all taking far too long. I am proud of him, don't get me wrong, I just miss him and don't really have anyone in my life that knows what he and I are going through.
I'm sorry, I'm just miserable.

I'm going to bed.

~Me

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